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Meeting my Ideal Man – 2


Videocall943_sketchhere is the 1st part: Meeting my Ideal Man

Just months before the new year’s eve I am in Budapest, starting a new life and waiting for my ideal man to join me!!!
I had 1 month of peace before crazy starts at work. It was the first time in a long time when I didn’t have to run anywhere or to help anyone, I had this time all for me. I was looking for a good present but couldn’t chose anything because we were never this close for me to actually know what he likes. I started buying supplies and realized that I don’t know if he drinks coffee or just tea, if he eats cereals or pasta, gas water or tapped, cola or sprite? I wanted to ask him all these questions but he was in another trip. And what do people do when they don’t get answers? they panic! He was nowhere to be found. This is not a new situation, because we are in different it passed weeks with no news from him so this is normal. With this free time, I started really analyzing the situation. I was getting confused, what do I really know about this guys, he could have one, two, three girlfriends, he could be married and have 3 kids and I am his female friend that he just talks to occasionally? or he might be lonely and likes to chat with me and no romantic feelings, who knows? I waited for him to get back in touch to plan his trip to Budapest and genuinely, just to speak some more. This never happened. During this month of peace I realized that if he liked me at least a bit, we would have been together a long time ago. He was always aware of where am I in life as a person and he didn’t take a step towards me. He is not restricted by a job, or by his family, he always travels, he could have traveled to my city. During this month only, I realized that he never asked me out on a date. I was thinking that he didn’t do that because I was not at that level when we met. It is the first day of 2013 and he is not here, not even close to come, he has vanished for the moment. He will get back in touch in a couple of weeks and I will be happy to chat with him, as someone that he has obviously considered me to be – his friend.
The bottom line is that he is not interested in me in that way, no matter what my level is and I have finally made peace with that. Coming to this realization has proved to be the best thing that happened to me this past year. If I was motivated by a potential relationship to grow so much, to discipline myself and to learn, I can only imagine what I can obtain once I have more concrete objectives!!!  I have the confidence to plan my future and I see very clear how I can fulfill these plans.
I am somehow grateful for meeting him at that time in my life. I am sure that he doesn’t realize what influence he had on me and how much he helped me. I really got to a different level and being here allows me to see other opportunities of growing and of course, to understand witch opportunities are real and witch are just fantasies 🙂 I don’t know if this is the desire of improving myself for the ideal man or its the fact that I’m growing up, but I see things better and clearer. I wonder, do all adults clear their minds in a peaceful month???? 🙂
It sounds silly but this is the absolute truth and I have to be honest, it makes more sens in my head than on the paper :). It feels good to write it down because not even my closest friends know about it.
I am confident about my future now knowing how well disciplined and motivated I can be. You just wait and see, world, you just wait and see 🙂 🙂 🙂

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January 2, 2013 - Posted by | Dating, Obsessions | , , ,

12 Comments »

  1. […] to be continue at Meeting my Ideal Man – 2 […]

    Pingback by Meeting my Ideal Man « Malinka's Studio | January 2, 2013 | Reply

  2. Malinka, I like this ending. Of course, I wish he had come, but your attitude is wonderful, and this is great growth on your part. From experience, I can tell you that when I found myself in “peaceful times” between relationships, they were always good for me. I was stronger, took care of myself, and was definitely a better person when the next relationship came along. My best to you as you go forward with your exciting life!

    Comment by Maddie Cochere | January 2, 2013 | Reply

    • yes Maddie, I wish this story of my life would have had a happy end but I guess it”s time for a peaceful time, as you say 🙂

      Comment by malinkasstudio | January 13, 2013 | Reply

  3. “I can only imagine what I can obtain once I have more concrete objectives”. I think the sky’s the limit

    Comment by H.L. Pauff (@HLPauff) | January 11, 2013 | Reply

    • yes, you are right!!!!!! only the sky!

      Comment by malinkasstudio | January 13, 2013 | Reply

  4. wow. I can relate to this on almost every level. And your English is so good! I’m an instant fan. 🙂

    Comment by Charron's Chatter | January 31, 2013 | Reply

    • Thank you for the kind words!

      Comment by malinkasstudio | February 5, 2013 | Reply

  5. I am blogger 40 to like this post. I am happy for you that 2013 made you look at your life (and his) from differite angles.
    Congradulation for all the work in these 3 years!
    Have a great day!

    Comment by afkpaul | February 5, 2013 | Reply

    • Thank you for the wishes and I guess that you are my lucky 40!

      Comment by malinkasstudio | February 5, 2013 | Reply

      • lucky 40, sounds nice.

        Thank you!

        Comment by afkpaul | February 7, 2013

  6. A great blog….well done…I loved reading this 🙂 Very special

    Comment by thepostmanalwaysrings | February 10, 2013 | Reply

  7. When I gave up on the perfect woman. Woman came. Perfection is impossible. Age make us fall in habits and needs. I believe best we can do. Is to find someone who make us run home to them and they make us happy. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on a difficult topic.

    Comment by johncoyote | February 20, 2013 | Reply


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